Friday, October 28, 2005
10:50 PM
too many times the words were at the tip of my tongue
ringing in head
screaming in my ears
but yet my lips kept sealed
my voice caught in my throat
and somehow i just couldnt speak
continue living behind this mask
trudging through the facade of my life
i only felt alive then
pressing close toyou
your cold hands on my bare skin
thats the reality that i hold on to
ringing in head
screaming in my ears
but yet my lips kept sealed
my voice caught in my throat
and somehow i just couldnt speak
continue living behind this mask
trudging through the facade of my life
i only felt alive then
pressing close to
your cold hands on my bare skin
thats the reality that i hold on to
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
11:58 AM
i have been silent as my brain is lacking anything vaguely intelligent
actually anything intelligible to say
there is this huge pump affixed to my brain that is slowly sapping my brain juices dry
not to mention the incessant drilling in my ears
courtesy to the wonderful HDB that has robbed me of my peace and quiet and
beauty sleep
and has thus seen me taking to roaring to keep the noise out
i am however unwilling to travel halfway round the world to the little island in the west for a measely few hours of class
so i am to contend myself with blasting my subwoofers and finding comfort in the clicking of the keys on my baby.
out with angelo and lijie to carl's jr and ben and jerry's yesterday
i can feel my fats spilling out
soon i will turn into a huge round ball.
thank you to angelo though for being such a darling and lugging my stuff around for me
and for accompanying two girls and travessing around town with us.
yes i shouldnt blog when i am not thinking straight
i am just ranting.
senselessly to say the least
actually anything intelligible to say
there is this huge pump affixed to my brain that is slowly sapping my brain juices dry
not to mention the incessant drilling in my ears
courtesy to the wonderful HDB that has robbed me of my peace and quiet and
beauty sleep
and has thus seen me taking to roaring to keep the noise out
i am however unwilling to travel halfway round the world to the little island in the west for a measely few hours of class
so i am to contend myself with blasting my subwoofers and finding comfort in the clicking of the keys on my baby.
out with angelo and lijie to carl's jr and ben and jerry's yesterday
i can feel my fats spilling out
soon i will turn into a huge round ball.
thank you to angelo though for being such a darling and lugging my stuff around for me
and for accompanying two girls and travessing around town with us.
yes i shouldnt blog when i am not thinking straight
i am just ranting.
senselessly to say the least
Sunday, October 23, 2005
11:39 PM
wanna sit here in silence
drinking in each emotion
engraving the memory in my mind
whats already etched in my heart
the walls have all come crumbling down
you always did have the key
but for you the doors were open
double western bacon
no words can ever come close to describing what i feelwanna sit here in silence
drinking in each emotion
engraving the memory in my mind
whats already etched in my heart
the walls have all come crumbling down
you always did have the key
but for you the doors were open
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
12:10 AM
she brought smiles to our faces
and a lightness to our hearts
taste the eager anticipation as she drew nearer to completion
and finally that sense of accomplishment
excitment
and elation and she sat majestically there
looking up from below
smiling down at us above.
how we fussed over her
the treasured
pampered member of the family.
but rudely she has been snatched from us once again
a cruel twist of fate
lying in a shattered heap in the grass
our broken hearts along with you
picking up the pieces that refuse to mend
baby we miss you
i miss you
irreplacable
always dearly remembered
angel from my nightmare
for those fleeting moments that she was in our livesshe brought smiles to our faces
and a lightness to our hearts
taste the eager anticipation as she drew nearer to completion
and finally that sense of accomplishment
excitment
and elation and she sat majestically there
looking up from below
smiling down at us above.
how we fussed over her
the treasured
pampered member of the family.
but rudely she has been snatched from us once again
a cruel twist of fate
lying in a shattered heap in the grass
our broken hearts along with you
picking up the pieces that refuse to mend
baby we miss you
i miss you
irreplacable
always dearly remembered
Saturday, October 15, 2005
11:37 PM
bittersweet symphony
jovi's back and i am hit by the love bug all over again
she has won me over
with ther sweet teethless grin
her deep deep dimples
chubby cheeks
tiny little hands and feet
the sound of her shrieks and laughter just
warm my heart
and i melt at the sight of her sweet smile.
and right now i am just really annoyed at the terrible schedule called my life
that has robbed me of anything that is a vague semblence of Life in general
cooped up in this terrible place in the far end of the island
isolated and deserted
(ok so its not that bad but i just hate the fact that i am so far away)
burried under mountains of papers and loads of homework
faced with countless deadlines
bombs with their red lights flashing away
counting down to my demise
and then theres tuition on weekends
that just about removes any joy of heading down to town
and robs me of rest
and sundays just become a drag and a chore.
the knowledge that the next day brings the start of a new week does nothing to help.
i'm tired
the weight of everything just presses down on me
and i am overwhelmed with emotion
i tear at the sightest thing
i just wanna crawl into a corner and cry myself to sleep
and never wake again
i miss my friends
i miss the fun and laughter they bring into my life
i hate the fact that everyone is scattered so far away
i hate the fact that our time tables just totally seem to clash
i just feel absolutely terrible.
she has won me over
with ther sweet teethless grin
her deep deep dimples
chubby cheeks
tiny little hands and feet
the sound of her shrieks and laughter just
warm my heart
and i melt at the sight of her sweet smile.
and right now i am just really annoyed at the terrible schedule called my life
that has robbed me of anything that is a vague semblence of Life in general
cooped up in this terrible place in the far end of the island
isolated and deserted
(ok so its not that bad but i just hate the fact that i am so far away)
burried under mountains of papers and loads of homework
faced with countless deadlines
bombs with their red lights flashing away
counting down to my demise
and then theres tuition on weekends
that just about removes any joy of heading down to town
and robs me of rest
and sundays just become a drag and a chore.
the knowledge that the next day brings the start of a new week does nothing to help.
i'm tired
the weight of everything just presses down on me
and i am overwhelmed with emotion
i tear at the sightest thing
i just wanna crawl into a corner and cry myself to sleep
and never wake again
i miss my friends
i miss the fun and laughter they bring into my life
i hate the fact that everyone is scattered so far away
i hate the fact that our time tables just totally seem to clash
i just feel absolutely terrible.
Thursday, October 13, 2005
12:35 AM
deep crevices
rifts
do you painstakenly mend the cracks with plaster?
or simply cover them up with a fresh coat of paint?
perhaps even just leave them be?
and live on with it
praying that the wall will hold up and not crumble.
to see the world in a grain of sand
and eternity in an hour
come back to me
cracks are showing on the walldeep crevices
rifts
do you painstakenly mend the cracks with plaster?
or simply cover them up with a fresh coat of paint?
perhaps even just leave them be?
and live on with it
praying that the wall will hold up and not crumble.
to see the world in a grain of sand
and eternity in an hour
Monday, October 10, 2005
10:50 PM
their sharp shrill shrieks piercing into me
- you can hurt me with the sharp end of what you say
theres this dull ache in my head
an incessant thumping that refuses to go away
and the world around me is shrouded in black swirls.
my teeth are sharp and i bite
if you dig deep enough
you will find just an empty void there
it was given away a long time ago
and its not about to find its way back
almost certainly not to you
quite poking your nose around
you are simply pushing the wrong buttons
where the rainbow ends
drowning in a sea of angry voicestheir sharp shrill shrieks piercing into me
- you can hurt me with the sharp end of what you say
theres this dull ache in my head
an incessant thumping that refuses to go away
and the world around me is shrouded in black swirls.
my teeth are sharp and i bite
if you dig deep enough
you will find just an empty void there
it was given away a long time ago
and its not about to find its way back
almost certainly not to you
quite poking your nose around
you are simply pushing the wrong buttons
Saturday, October 08, 2005
10:48 PM
i believe i do owe you guys and apology.
sorry from the bottom of my heart.
i did want to be there..
in many ways..my heart was.
i miss you dears.
all my love.
silence does not mean agreeing or even condoning your actions
it does not even come close to meaning acceptance
its a sigh of helplessness
a slient wish
and a hope
that you wont
that you'll come to see and understand.
quietstorm
abby lijie vivien wei weii believe i do owe you guys and apology.
sorry from the bottom of my heart.
i did want to be there..
in many ways..my heart was.
i miss you dears.
all my love.
silence does not mean agreeing or even condoning your actions
it does not even come close to meaning acceptance
its a sigh of helplessness
a slient wish
and a hope
that you wont
that you'll come to see and understand.
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
11:13 PM
shun my weaknesses and iniquities
detest my selfishness
abhor that web of deceit so intricately spun
i've pulled the veil over your eyes
shielding you from that true face of mine
cold callous
hiding behind a mask
but yet i know that the hurt that i will cause
will drive a sword straight through your hard
and i am helpless to stop it
i
am the cruel one inflicting the wound on
you
so pure simple honest and true
i dont want to make you cry
make it stop
make it all go away.
darling girl have faith
dry your tears and stand strong
dont lose hope but keep pressing on.
i am here..right by your side.
i know you can
love you.
sticks and stones
sometimes i despise myselfshun my weaknesses and iniquities
detest my selfishness
abhor that web of deceit so intricately spun
i've pulled the veil over your eyes
shielding you from that true face of mine
cold callous
hiding behind a mask
but yet i know that the hurt that i will cause
will drive a sword straight through your hard
and i am helpless to stop it
i
am the cruel one inflicting the wound on
you
so pure simple honest and true
i dont want to make you cry
make it stop
make it all go away.
darling girl have faith
dry your tears and stand strong
dont lose hope but keep pressing on.
i am here..right by your side.
i know you can
love you.
Monday, October 03, 2005
7:36 PM
mt heart always aches for him
and it is for him that my soul soars
mondays always have me wishing and longing
someone (thestupid army) has rudely pulled the plug out
darkness wraps her claws around me
and i am confronted once again with an empty space
devoid of the smiles and laughter to which i have grown so accustomed
i miss the familiar warmth and sensitive touch
the emptiness and silence are screaming in my ear
fairy tale
my tears always fall for himmt heart always aches for him
and it is for him that my soul soars
mondays always have me wishing and longing
someone (the
darkness wraps her claws around me
and i am confronted once again with an empty space
devoid of the smiles and laughter to which i have grown so accustomed
i miss the familiar warmth and sensitive touch
the emptiness and silence are screaming in my ear